a vision of my dream lately....

I'm feeling so nervous these days, and don't care anymore about my job, all I think is that I wana make sure that the job that I will get in the future is good for my imaan, my future and my family. I do really want to get rid of the PTPTN debsy debt and help my parents :)

I have perform an istikharah, 2 times... the first time, I dreamt abt me staying in a huge building which has so many rooms like a hostel or something, and so many arabs girls around me, and there is one girl in that dream has caused a chaos in the place we live, and I felt so insecure. I thought it was nothing, because at first, i thought that as long as we saw anything that we really so into in our dream, then we pass, I got so totally wrong about it now, by analyzing my second dream.  So the 2nd istikharah vision that I have attained is when I got to witness a statement that was given to me, and I read them thoroughly that I have to pay certain amount ($$$) , (and its quite big )... so that I would have a chance to work at there, and that moment subhanAllah, my emotions was feeling so uneasy and I do not how to describe it but so despair in my dream.... and till now, I could not get rid of my nervousness... Allahu musta'an. Im still hoping that I could get something for the third istikharah...